Thursday, July 30, 2009

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

~Robert Frost

This is a poem I have become sooooo familiar with...
I've discussed this poem in my english class a million time.
Apparently, this is the easiest poem to be given to an ESL student, sorry to admit.

It's so simple, yet so meaningful.
It's about an unfinished past...
that u'll never know how the outcome will be if you would've gone the other way.

It's not necessarily about your choices in school...
it also applies to life choices.

For instance, you're driving to this job interview
and you need to decide whether to take the local road or the freeway.
You take the freeway, there happen to be a car crash.
Then you need to decide whether to stay on the freeway or take an exit.
You get out of the freeway, and traffic is even crazier.
You ended up being late to the interview, and now you're stuck with a boring desk job and you'd live in a small apartment in Chinatown.
Your wife complains to you because you don't make enough money.
Your children ended up going to public school and get caught for a D.U.I.

If only you left home 5 minutes earlier...
If only you didn't take that freeway...
Your life would've gone differently...WAY differently...
I'm sure everyone have had that feeling before.

One small, simple decision could make ALLLLLL the difference...
and every choices that we made helped us to be the person that we are now.

But that's the thing about life...
we will be faced to maaaaaaaaaaany split roads...
sometimes 2, 3, 4, or even 5 choices of roads to be taken.
I can guarantee you, there will be regrets...
After all, we're only one person...we couldn't travel it all!

The thing to keep in mind is...
there's a brightside to every decission. Think positive!
Think wisely on every decision that you make because, thanks to Robert Frost, we now know we could never ever turn back and find out what the other road would be like.


Sunday, July 26, 2009

Cobra Starship

I often got this question,
"What do you look for in a guy?"

Honestly, I don't know either...
I could never pin-point exactly what I want in a guy
[Hey, life is like a box of chocolate anyways, why be specific?]

But one thing fo' sho'...
and guys... u better take out ur notes...

Fashion sense is essential ...
One band that I just absolutely fond of...
musicwise + stylewise is Cobra Starship
[Check out their new album "Hot Mess" in stores Augutst 11, 2009, can't wait!!!]

They really do have a keen fashion sense...
very pop urban...
they're not afraid to play with bright neon colors with graphics prints...
the theme is fun and comfy...
it kinda inspired me to take pictures with my fisheye, randomly...

Oooh they're REALLY hilarious too...must check out their webisodes at www.cobracam.tv
If u don't pee ur pants laughing, u really shud go to the doctor!

Oooh...and GABE I friggin heart u!

My Conscience

If it's only up to me and my libido...
we could probably hit it off !

The problem is...
I have this thing called conscience
that keeps holding me back.

What sucks about it is that I can't tie my conscience to a rock and throw it to the bottom of the sea.
Wish I could... but I can't!

What's with this feeling called consciousness?

It tells you to return that wallet that you found on the sidewalk...
It prevents you from saying that your best friend looks really ugly with that shirt...
It tells you to study for the finals, instead of going out with your friends...
It stops you from stealing that really nice bracelet with no alarm attached to it...
It stops you from banging your teacher's head to the wall when he refused to give you some slack for handing in your homework late...
It stops you from going berserk and start shooting people when you're not ready for a pop-quiz...
It stops you from kicking your co-worker on the crotch when he's coming on to you...
It stops you from ripping off that guy's shirt that you just meet...
It stops you from cutting your own wrist with a knife when the going gets tough...

Imagine if we don't have that thing called consciousness?
The world would've gone chaotic...
we all can let lose doing as we please, not having a care in the world on the after effect...
wouldn't that be nice?

In a way, consciousness is very restricting...
and yet, it's the thing that makes us human
a normal, decent human being...

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Top 25 Hits


Summer hit must-have's in your playlist...
Courtesy of 102.2 Prambors FM Jakarta.

1. Monomania - Ohm Square
2. Mad - Neyo
3. What You Do - Chrisette Michele
4. It's Alright - 311
5. Never Say Never - The Fray
6. For the Price of a Cup of Tea - Belle & Sebastian
7. The Reeling - Passion Pit
8. When Love Takes Over - Kelly Rowland
9. New In Town - Little Boots
10. 21 Guns - Greenday
11. Mama Do (Uh Oh Uh Oh) - Pixie Lott
12. Jackie Collins Existential Question Time - Manic Street Preachers
13. Won't Stop - One Republic
14. Good Girl Go Bad - Cobra Starship ft. Leighton Meester
15. Bottle Pop - Pussycat Dolls ft. Snoop Dog
16. You and I - Wilco ft. Jem
17. Jungle Drum - Emiliana Torini
18. The Stoop - Little Jackie
19. Officialy Yours - Craig David
20. Happy Ending - Mika
21. We Walk - The Ting Tings
22. The Jimmy Choo's - Chester French
23. Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) - Lady Gaga
24. New Divide - Linkin Park
25. About A Girl - The Academy Is

Tulip Skirt

Probably about a year ago (or longer, not sure!), I notice tulip skirts started to made its way into the urban fashion world. Now, celebrities wear it, the IN people are wearing it, and it's also an "official" uniform in the clubbing world.

Personally, I absolutely adore tulip skirts...
It lies perfectly on your waist...
hiding your bulging belly and your hips (for those of you people who have too much "curves")
and goes with absolutely ANYTHING!



























Thursday, July 23, 2009

Insomnia

Ok...for the record this isn't me who writes this...
I'm depressed, but not as depressed as the following article...
but in a way it kinda applies to me...and my insomnia problems [which also gives me the inspiration for this blog name]

If you wanna see the guy who actually write this, go to:

Props to Chaneda, if that's his real name!


"Insomnia, depression, and loneliness

a dreadful concoction of misery if there ever was such a thing.

For years now, (granted, I’m only 20), I’ve been fighting depression with
my psychologists, medications, and everything else you can name.

However, while that may be somewhat effective I have found that

come night I realize how alone I am.


I literally have no one to call at home nor when I am at college and knowing this,
and finding it excessively hard to find people who want to feel a connection with me,
I am usually in an eternal state of sadness,
accompanied with spasms that are a product of my mind
and feelings of gloom and despair, including tears on the worst nights.

How have others dealt with feelings of loneliness and of feeling that no one cares nor wishes to care?


I have come to cement in my mind that, in general,
people do not wish to approach those with issues
and instead prefer to hang out or chat with “cool” and “suave” individuals
who always show a mask of being forever happy and filled with superior self esteem…
and are fun, witty, and usually attractive (whatever our society determines that to be).

Am I wrong in my thinking?
What experiences of extreme lonely feelings do people have?
Does anyone else feel completely alone and unwanted even in a room filled with people, many who you might “know” for months if not years?"

Fairy tales and the truth

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales,
that fantasy of what your life would be:
- white dress
- prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill

You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith.
Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming...

They were so close you could taste them...

but eventually YOU GROW UP!

one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale DISSAPEARS.

Most people turn to the things and people they can trust.
But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely
cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith,
that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."

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At the end of the day faith is a funny thing.

"
It turns up when you don't really expect it.

Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed.

The castle, well, it may not be a castle.
And its not so important happy ever after, just that its HAPPY RIGHT NOW.

See once in a while, once in a blue moon,
people will surprise you,
and once in a while people may even take your breath away."


Grey's Anatomy

Haloween

Mmmm....Haloween...
another hallmark event that gives you a reason to dress up really slutty and eat all the candies that you want.

My plans for the Haloween:
dress up as Lady Gaga and PARTY!

Some photo inspiration:

Pppppppppp...Po...pokerface...pokerface
I just adore her! <3